Sometimes I feel like this:

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Let me explain: I'm 30 weeks pregnant and this pregnancy has been very hard on me and consequently on my husband. I haven't had much patience with people and since I can't lose it in front of strangers or with my son, my poor husband receives the brunt of everything. The sane part of me, the normal part of me, says "you're being crazy, just ignore the fact that he is chewing too loudly." But the insane-pregnant side of me says out loud: "Stop chewing!"

My husband is extremely patient and loving. He is a middle child and therefore a peacemaker. It takes a LOT for him to lose his patience, but for the first time in our marriage I've pushed him that far. Of course, all that comes of it is basically him telling me I'm being a butthead. He's right of course, and I feel awful. I want to do something special for him. Something that shows him how much I really do appreciate all of the support, patience, and love he gives me.

So I have two things to request from our readers: One, any ideas of something special I can do for him? Two, And please tell me I'm not the only one who acts crazy...

P.S. The video is kind of creepy, therefore appropriate with Halloween tomorrow...

The Sacrifice that is Motherhood

I was conversing with a friend a couple of weeks ago who asked me how Motherhood was going. I told her "Great. It is well worth the sacrifice." My friend said, "See, I wouldn't think it is a sacrifice. At least not for me - I know you wanted to have a career but I want to stay home." Later I realized my friend mistakenly assumed I was speaking only of my career and the monetary sacrifice. If I had been a little sharper at the time I would have told her what I really meant:

1. First, there is pregnancy. There goes your hormones, sanity, and body.
2. Then your mind goes - I literally forgot to finish a take-home portion of an exam once.
3. After you have the baby you foolishly think your body will be back to normal. HAHAHAHA!
4. Forget dates with your husband, doing anything past 8pm (cuz you'll be exhausted), or leaving the house by yourself for longer than 2 hours if you are nursing.
5. And speaking of leaving the house it now takes 10 times as long to get out the door even though it is just one child.
6. Sex is pretty much nonexistent for at least a little bit.
7. Going to the bathroom by yourself - especially when they become mobile - is a thing of the past. My son's latest thing is to come in and put his head on my knee while I'm trying to complete my business.
8. Showers - ummm, yes, I think I remember those. Even if you do get one in you take it so fast that halfway through the day you can't remember if you've taken a shower that day or not. And is that really bad dandruff or did I just forget to rinse my hair out?
9. Then there is the whole "baby proof your house" which will really never be baby proof because babies are smart little creatures who figure things out way too fast for your own good.
10. And the reason why I wasn't able to respond to my friend at the time was because I was completely exhausted and was sneaking in some computer time while he blessedly took a nap.